This blog is dedicated to Breonna Taylor. Sis, I know I didn’t know you personally. But there is not a day that goes by that I do not think about you and the legacy that your life was supposed to live out. People are fighting for you here. I am sorry it’s taking so long, I'm so sorry. I love you.
Can I tell y’all a secret?
Quarantine was supposed to been over and instead it is dragging me by my roots. I was not ready. I mean, yes, I asked God for some big things in March and, yes, he did come through. But I did not know that him coming through would mean I would have to identify with the painful pieces of my past. I truly didn’t. I just thought your girl was going to shed a few tears and go about her way, and God was like “No ma’am we will be healing this properly”.
Sometimes we let the enemy convince us that our pain means God doesn’t love us or He is somehow punishing us for something we’ve done. Repeat after me, pain is not punishment. It’s not. I think we think it is because it hurts and it is extremely uncomfortable and brings on a series of other emotions that we are not ready for.
A lot of us (myself included) are allowing our past to hold us hostage in in ways that God never designed because you believe that you are still a disappointment and that is not true. True and ultimate freedom with Christ is understanding and knowing in your heart that he has already paid the ultimate price for you and that God’s heart wants for His kids to be out here walking in freedom.
Are you finding it hard to love yourself today?
Remember these sweet things God wants to remind you:
God sees how hard you are trying to be loving, kind, and helpful. He understands that you will fail at all of these things! And he still loves you. Can you find the grace to love yourself even when you fail? Our culture preaches perfection He does not. He loves you even if you miss a deadline or forget to cook dinner.
God’s love for you is not contingent upon perfection. You don’t need to expect perfection from yourself. Can you look at yourself—flaws and all—and say, “I love me because God loves me”? No one can beat you at being you sis (bro if you reading) so walk in that identity in loving who you are.
God loves you no matter what. If you are God’s child, you cannot escape his love. No amount of running can change that. He is always going to choose you, over and over. He loves you that much. He is just good like that.
God,
Please touch the hearts of every person reading this. May your love come like a flood and overwhelm them and meet them where they need it the most. God we reject lies against loneliness, suicidal thoughts, anxiety, pain, and even anger. We surrender that to you. We speak healing and breakthrough over lives, and courage to ask for help. Help them to know that they are fully known and loved by you. You have given them purpose and you are not done yet.
Sincerely,
Becoming… Loved
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