You know when you are forced to get somewhere and sit down you have a lot more time with your thoughts than you would like. You have a lot more time to talk to God about the aches and pains you have been carrying, he even gets at the stuff you don’t even wanna talk about. The hidden things are what I like to call them. Quarantine has gotten all up in my business, and I have struggled major with it.
You know what I love the most about this time though? I don’t have anyone or anything stepping in to use as my “scapegoat” for why I cannot get to The Father like I need to. I am literally the only thing standing in the way, and what I am seeing is that I would prefer to stay in the way. But God in his ever so gentle way repositions me so that he can continue get to me in a new way.
Stillness was where I began to be filled up in a new way. It is where I learned how to ask God for what I needed. It is where I learned about forgiveness. It is where I learned about trusting Him fully.
You see, yes, we are in quarantine to keep everyone else safe. But there is something so clear and evident that God has a strong desire to do in the life of everyone all over the world. He desires to break us from busyness of our day to day lives, and recenter our focus on him. He wants us to get somewhere and be still! We became those children that were so busy running around and making ourselves exhausted that we could not hear His voice like we needed to. He was still doing what daddy’s do in taking care of His children and all of our needs, but he needed call us back home to really get this work done.
Let me tell you a secret fam.
Come in close because I am going to whisper it real soft for effect.
....even though you are running you still gotta go back home.
I have some good news for you though, God is FAITHFUL and he always is ready and waiting for his kids when we are ready to stop running the race.You don’t have to be strong all the time, you don’t have to hold it all in all the time. You need a place where you can just be in the midst of everything that it is going on. In the stillness you get to experience God in a whole new way. The hardest part for me is surrendering to being out of control. I can’t be in my rhythm and God’s rhythm at the same time. So I force myself to let go, it has become a whole lot easier that way. I am able to shed the layers and identities of who I think Creseida should be and place them up against who God is already purposing me to be.
Our routines may be broken. Our reality may be awkward, but our God is still the same. I love Jesus, for real. I just keep thinking of all of the gifts that he’s filling me and my people up with in this time and it makes me so excited. Don’t let this distancing keep you from intimacy with God. Going to church is not a hobby or another item to check off the list. We have to believe in this gospel’s power to connect this world and heal our land.
God, Thank you for allowing us the opportunity to just be still. The greatest connection is our opportunity to be connected and loved by you. Thank you for providing stillness for us to remember that you are still God. May this time of quarantine provide sweet reflections of the life that you truly have for us. We can never run too far from your grace and love for us, and that is the ultimate truth. So for however long we have left in this quarantine may we spend as much time connected to you as possible.
Signed, Becoming…Still
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